What One Hour On A Mountain Taught Me About Life

What One Hour On A Mountain Taught Me About Life

I’ve just returned from Spain where I’ve spent a month escaping from the English winter!

I was rewarded with blue skies, sunshine and surrounded by the beauty of the mediterranean sea. This is my happy place and where I feel most myself. No matter where in the world I am, I am always drawn to the sea as if by a magnet.

But one day, we decided to visit a town in the hills. Spain is very mountainous and there’s something majestic and awe inspiring about being high up and looking down on the vista below. We picked a fabulous day for our visit as the skies were a stunning shade of bright blue and we could see for miles.

We climbed to the top of the town where the ruins of an old fortification remained and what we saw kept us enthralled for over an hour.

It was two o’clock in the afternoon and overhead, a couple of eagles soared, beautiful and graceful as they simply glided on the breeze. And then, it was as if a call went out to every other eagle who nested in those protected hills. Over the next 20 minutes, more and more eagles joined our original pair. They came from every direction and before long there was a large group of eagles circling together, as if they became part of one graceful dance to a song only they could hear.

And what a dance it was.

And as I watched them in wonder, I realised that they were not flying or soaring but simply drifting with the currents of the breeze. Round and round they went in an endless spiral. Up and up and then around again. Dozens and dozens of eagles, spiralling gently and effortlessly, each of them an individual creature and yet together, they made wondrous shapes that showed me the breeze, that showed me the currents that I couldn’t see or feel on my own.

In those few minutes, I recognised the power of allowing

The beauty of allowing the stream of life to wash over me and to simply be in the flow. To give up the need to fly alone and to instead, allow inspiration to take me where it would. I understood as I watched the eagles, coming from all parts of the mountains, that each of us is on our own journey and yet, we can come together and make beautiful shapes. That we can become the embodiment, the demonstration of what already exists but which most people cannot see by themselves. We can illustrate what is possible simply by allowing ourselves to be at one with the flow of life.

Why is it that we struggle and fight so hard to create what we believe we want?

We push and pull against what shows up, like some sort of tug-of-war that we can never win.

We categorise events as right or wrong.

Success or failure.

But are they?

What if we were to simply let go.

To allow inspiration to take us where it will.

To join the flow of life as the eagles do.

What might we experience?

Who might we meet?

What beautiful shapes might we create?

The eagles knew on that day that the breeze was perfect. They came together without any effort, they danced, they experienced and then as the breeze shifted, they simply melted away again. No fight. No struggle. No holding on to something gone … simply enjoying the experience and moving on to the next without the slightest hint of regret.

And tomorrow?

I’ll never know as I have simply moved onwards in my own journey but perhaps on another day, when the breeze is perfect, these beautiful birds will come together again and dance to a new tune.  A new piece of music will be playing and they will gather to celebrate the beauty of the flow of life.

Becoming You

Becoming You

Have you ever stopped to ask yourself who you are?

Not who you think you should be, but actually who you already ARE.

Once upon a time you were free to think, feel and behave in a way that was a true reflection of you. It didn’t last long as very soon, people started telling you what you should think, what you should believe, how you should feel and told you what the rules of acceptable behaviour are.

Somewhere inside of you though, perhaps buried very deeply, is a spark of the person you once were before the world started telling you who you should be.

Who were you before the world told you what you were not? – Bryant McGill

If you look at a child, you will see them explore their world. They push the boundaries by climbing trees, jumping in puddles, saying ‘NO’ a lot, talking to themselves and by expressing themselves creatively through art, song, dance and movement. A small child has a bountiful imagination and creates a world for themselves that we adults can only guess at.

They are completely absorbed in the activity they are involved in and sometimes nothing you say will tear them away from it. In that moment, the child is following their inner voice, following their joy and revelling in something that makes them supremely happy.

Before you say it, I know we adults live in the ‘real world’; the world where you must work so that you can pay your bills, take care of those who are dependent on you and be responsible and dependable. Of course these things are important but if this is all your life comprises of, you are not living but simply existing.

To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all – Oscar Wilde

If you are here reading this article, you are most probably searching for a way to improve your life. Perhaps there are things you believe you need to change about yourself.

Imagine an onion for a moment. Yeah, I know, brings tears to your eyes doesn’t it?

But what if those tears came from a different place?

What if when you cut the end off the onion to see the layers inside, you begin to understand that every one of those layers hides a part of yourself that you have forgotten? Every single layer is something you have taught yourself to become, someone others have taught you to become. If you cut through the middle of the onion, you will see its heart. If you have ever roasted an onion, you will know this is the sweetest tenderest part, wrapped and cocooned by layers of protection to keep the developing flower bud safe from harm.

Perhaps you have done the same? Perhaps you too have built up layers of protection to keep you safe from hurt and to hide behind so that the judgemental and often unkind world can’t reach you. Those people who would seek to bully, to reject, to gossip and to make fun of you.

The problem is, that the thicker the layers on top of you or the stronger and higher the walls, the more imprisoned you become until you cannot see yourself at all.

What if your journey isn’t about becoming anything? What if it’s about unbecoming everything that isn’t really you so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place?

So maybe instead of feeling that you need to change something about yourself to be happier, healthier, more successful or more peaceful, maybe you need instead to un-become what everyone else would want you to be.

Just like that onion that brought tears to your eyes, perhaps you could start peeling back the layers of doubt, sadness, rejection, pain, expectation, fear and conformity so that you can start creating a connection to yourself again.

Perhaps you could start by lifting your head and looking the world in the eye.

What do you see?

One thing I know for sure is that you will always see what you expect to see.
If you expect to see sadness, rejection and cruelty, then that is exactly what you will be surrounded with. But if you expect to see happiness, kindness and connection with others, then that is exactly what you will see.

Challenge your assumptions

Throw off the media’s interpretation of the world we live in and look again. Look for the little children who play together with no judgement. Look for the kindness that strangers give to each other.

Go where you feel most yourself.

For me, this is the beach. When I put my bare feet on the sand, when I walk through the waves at the water’s edge, when I hear the sound of sea birds calling to each other I somehow come alive. It’s as if I become part of the ocean, swept away and gently carried to a place of peace and aliveness.

Many people feel this way in a forest. The dappled sunshine above, the rippling of a stream and the birdsong that whispers constantly in joy around you, is like a cocoon of safety and calm.

If you have never explored this, then take some time this week to find your place. Somewhere you will feel lighter, somewhere you will feel safe and somewhere you will recognise the wee child that wants to play, wants to smile and wants to dance.

Spend time with yourself, explore your world and rediscover the person you are. Use your imagination to create a world of joy and happiness for yourself.

Don’t be afraid as you already have everything you need inside you. The person you were born to be is waiting patiently for you to remember. Show yourself the attention you need, show kindness, show love, show acceptance and in just a short while, you will begin to shine again.

My Heart Beats With The Ocean

My Heart Beats With The Ocean

I remember so clearly a time in my life when I was overwhelmed by my emotions. In grief over a loss, afraid of what the future might bring and unsure which direction to turn. I was paralysed, anxious and doubting my abilities to make any kind of decision.

In desperation, I took myself to the beach with a book hoping that some time out might quiet the voice in my head which was keeping me awake at night. Round and round the thoughts would go, telling me a horror story of my life. I was in a cycle of dread, afraid to be awake and terrified to sleep.

So on this particular sunny day, I chose a quiet beach with big skies and white sand. With my towel spread on the sand, I lay down to read. As the words rose up in front of me, they seemed to blur, fading into the background. All I could hear was the birds in the sky, the gentle breeze through the trees and the splashing of the waves as they broke gracefully onto the sand.

Putting my book to one side, I closed my eyes and resting my head on my arms, gave myself up to the world around me. The shrill cry of a bird as it celebrated the freedom of flight, the soft movement of the leaves in the trees and the warmth of the sun on my back.

Slowly but surely my body began to relax, my mind began to quiet and soon there was nothing but the rhythmical beating of my heart which kept pace with the sound of the waves as they greeted the shore before retreating to gather again and again. In this moment I became one with the ocean and part of something so much bigger than myself.

My soul flew and I began to heal.

Please take a couple of minutes to listen to the ocean waves below and find peace to take forward into your day
Does Your Life Feel Like Groundhog Day?

Does Your Life Feel Like Groundhog Day?

A number of years ago a film was released called Groundhog Day and starring Bill Murray. Set in Pennsylvania, Murray plays a professionally unfulfilled weatherman sent to follow the annual Groundhog Day festivities that have been celebrated since 1887.

The dictionary defines Groundhog Day as ‘a situation where a set of unwelcome or tedious events seem to be recurring in exactly the same way’.

Do you feel like you’re living the same day over and over again?

 The film is a comedy about a man who lives the same day over and over again. Every morning he wakes up to the same song on the radio and interacts with the same people in the same order in exactly the same way. It takes him a few days to figure out what is happening and each morning he awakes with hope for a new day. Inevitably he realises that he is stuck in a time loop and no matter what he does during the day, he wakes to repeat it again.

For a time he behaves erratically as he feels helpless to change the apparently endless cycle of repetitive events. However, eventually he takes a look at himself and decides that if he has to live the same day over and over again, he will live it well. He puts on a cheerful face and does what he can to help others. As he changes his thoughts about the day, his experience also changes. Eventually he learns what he needs to and he wakes to a new day.

Sometimes life can feel like Groundhog Day as we continue to create the events of our past in our current time. However, just like Bill Murray, the power to change your experience comes from you. If you are tired of living in a cycle of pain, rejection or anger, then you can do something about it. Your life is a direct result of the thoughts, words and actions you decide to take.

Freeing yourself from the pain of the past is as simple as changing your perception about it. Simple but not necessarily easy. It will take a concerted effort for the first little while but in time it can become an automatic part of how you think, speak and act. Master your thoughts and watch your world change. You will no longer relive Groundhog Day but will create new experiences filled with joy and freedom.

How would it feel to break the pattern?

The Truth About Falling In Love

The Truth About Falling In Love

We see romantic love portrayed all around us in television shows, films and advertising images. But what is it really? Is it the feeling of euphoria when you meet someone new? Is it the physical passion which often quickly follows? Is it the fluttery feeling which occurs when you think of the other person? Is it in fact an overwhelming feeling of warmth when you are with them?

Romantic novels make our hearts race and sometimes our tears fall as we experience falling in love through the eyes of our heroine and hero. The tussle which goes on as they resist their feelings which build despite their best efforts not to get involved until they each capitulate and find happiness in each others’ arms. So maybe this is the feeling we are looking for?

Or perhaps it’s because we want to feel like we belong; that we are a part of something bigger than ourselves; when two become one. A feeling of security and connection which feels like a relief when we find it. As if all is well in our world.

The truth is there are many elements to being in love and the satisfaction of each builds another layer of emotion until our feelings are so strong we feel they will last forever. That we have found ‘the one’ who makes us complete.

But let’s have a look at these layers and discover what’s really happening. You may think that the other person is creating the feelings of joy, euphoria, security and hope but in facts it’s you.

You are the one who is creating the feelings based upon your perceptions of what love is and how well what is happening fits them.

This is probably the most important thing to consider.

How will you recognise love when it comes along?

Surprisingly, it can have more to do with the things you are not aware of than those you are. It’s a bit like a game of pairs. You turn over lots of cards which do not match until the one which does is revealed. Similarly, you have a specific face which is made up of your beliefs, expectations and understanding of how a relationship ‘should’ look. It is these pre-existing markers which will determine the person you fall in love with even if they come in a package you do not expect. You will feel a connection to someone who fulfils the specific needs you have established even if you are not aware of what they are.

There are many needs which a person may wish to have met. They need for security, kindness, nurture, validation, acceptance, strength, beauty, absolution just to name a few. And within those, there are a myriad of meanings to each.

Let’s assume you are female and have a need for strength. This could be recognition of a strength you received from your father you wish to replicate. Or it could be that you saw your father as weak and are looking for the opposite. Perhaps you feel weak or powerless in your own life and feel the need for someone to take care of you. A partner who is decisive or powerful could be attractive to you.

But if you are not standing in your own power, you may attract someone who is controlling and overbearing, ultimately making you feel even more powerless as they strive to meet their need for dominance because of their own sense of inferiority. What started out as an apparent match in fact becomes a nightmare.

Or perhaps you have a need to nurture. You may find someone who is down on their luck attractive as it brings out your maternal instincts. You may gain enormous satisfaction from assisting them to improve their situation and then be completely shocked when they do not show you the appropriate gratitude. But perhaps your nurturing had the effect of making the other person feel beholden, weak or emasculated.

The imbalance of power between the two of you created resentment and frustration leading to cruelty and despair.

These are a couple of examples which may appear extreme but the truth is we attract based on what we put out to the world. Like attracts like even if this is not immediately apparent.

It’s a bit like a magnet where positive and negative are attracted to each other. Two people with the same fundamental need but whose behaviour is opposite will be a match. The power of this recognition can be like a magnet which is almost impossible to resist. Your strongest need is being met and therefore you tell yourself love will conquer all. There is heartbreak ahead for each of you but neither of you recognises the truth because your connection feels so strong.

In fact romantic love is based on an alignment of beliefs, expectations and needs.

And the closer the alignment, or perception of alignment, the stronger the feelings will become. Standing in your full power ensures that you will attract someone who compliments you, equal to equal.

True love includes respect, kindness, independence, acceptance, equality and freedom.

Without these, a relationship will fail as the balance of power tips first one way and then the next until the perpetual motion creates a rift which cannot be repaired.

Learning to live in Power and Freedom builds these qualities in you and as you put these out to the world you will attract the same in return. As everything comes from you, the world is yours to create however you wish. Your perception creates your reality so get clear and attract the love you truly deserve.

This 6 Letter Word Will Sabotage Your Happiness

This 6 Letter Word Will Sabotage Your Happiness

There’s a word that most of us use on a regular basis that can have a detrimental effect on our self-esteem and our motivation. It’s only a small word, just six letters, but it has a massive impact on the way we view ourselves and our success in life.

We speak to ourselves almost continuously and the things we say, and the words we use, shape our lives. A lot of what we say is unconscious and goes on in the background without us being aware of it. But just because you haven’t listened to what you’re saying, doesn’t mean you’re not hearing it.

The brain works a bit like a groove on an LP. The needle goes around and around in the grooves, playing the same piece of music every time, no matter how many times you play it. In the same way, the words you say, whether in your mind or out loud, will create an automatic way of thinking.

So what is this 6 letter word that will sabotage your happiness?

The word ‘should’ is such a small word that we almost don’t hear it.

“I really should …”.

Sounds harmless enough doesn’t it? Sometimes we use this word because we want to be accepted by the people we are with. Other times we see or hear something which has improved the life of someone else and think perhaps it may help us too.

But mostly we use this word because we are not taking the action we think we ‘should’.

Perhaps you wish to lose weight or start an exercise program and tell yourself “I really should go to the gym today”; or “I really shouldn’t eat that chocolate brownie”.  Or maybe you have a partner who is abusive and say, “I really should break up with this person”.

Whatever your particular circumstances, the effect of the word ‘should’ is the same. See, the problem with continuing to say ‘should’, is that you are essentially beating yourself up on every occasion. You believe you ‘should’ be doing something but you know you are not. You are judging yourself which produces guilt and sabotages your happiness.

So how can you release yourself from this guilt? 

Ask yourself, “Why do I believe I should be doing this?”

Is it based on other people’s expectations?

We live in a world where there are certain stereotypes which are considered desirable, acceptable and the ‘norm’. In many cases, they are unrealistic, impossible or simply the result of an advertising campaign to sell you something. If your use of the word ‘should’ is based on other people’s expectations, or your desire to ‘fit in’, then it’s not really about you at all. You will never find the motivation you need to make changes if this is your truth. And why would you beat yourself up for something someone else believes? Madness huh? This is your life and you never, ever need to justify yourself to anyone else. Accept yourself as you are and let the ‘should’ go.

Is it something you really want to do?

Oftentimes you wish something were different, you want the results that you believewill show up once the change is made, but for some reason you just don’t seem to be able to do anything about it. You feel hopeless as you cannot see how anything can change and helpless to do anything about it. You are completely powerless in this position and the pain you feel as a result is overwhelming.

If you really want things to change then the second question is the most important.

“If I really want to change, what is stopping me?”

It takes a strong desire to motivate change. Even if our current reality is painful, weirdly, we often prefer a familiar pain to the adaptations we may need to make to create something different. In this case, the fear of the unknown is keeping us stuck in a pattern of behaviour which is paralysing. Whilst some people are motivated by the desire for something different, more commonly people are motivated to change because the pain of their current situation is more intense than the fear of the unknown. And things have to get pretty bad before we can acknowledge this.

J. K. Rowling says, “Rock bottom became the foundation on which I built my life“, and this is true for many of us. It is only when we are in despair that we find the strength to move beyond the pain into the life of power and freedom we desire. Pain motivates us to take action.

Sometimes however, you don’t have the information or skills you need to go about these changes. If you have lived your whole life in a certain way, then to do something different seems impossible.  But doing things differently is the only way to get a different result and therefore asking for help is often the first step to take.

Make a decision today to take the word ‘should’ out of your dictionary and choose your path to happiness either through letting go of expectations which don’t concern you, or by asking for help to take the steps you need to enact change. In either case, in the moment you choose, you are reclaiming your personal power and stepping into freedom from guilt and helplessness. And happiness will be your reward …

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